just me

I had peace. I had calm. I was moving through this, moving forward with the support of my family and my friends.

Now I want to scream.
I want to punch something and I want to throw something.

I think it's my turn to have a bad day.
I want permission to be angry, and to yell.
I want the right to slam a door or two, and I want someone else to pick up the pieces when I break something.
I don't want anyone to be angry with me.
I want this anger to by mine, and I don't want to share.

I want someone to pick up my slack- to get my back while I totally lose it- because I know life goes on and the needs of others have to be met.

I will be back; I promise. Just let me go through this today.